JUST CHAPTERS

2008-05-27T08:19:00.000-07:00

back. mia for so damn long lols had been really busy with study n work so ya.
life at sp ain't that great.its fun,with the company of friends.but nt so with tons of tutorials to complete,ccas,projs and even cip. totally lame la.
had been stressed up over some proj recently.
and was i wrong to actually say all those stuffs?
and i wished tt none of this happened ..den mayb we wouldnt be like this now..hais.
i was too stubborn la..really lols.
and wad caused all this changes..i was the one hu caused it.maybe.
i guess, it takes time. to sidetrack back to whr we started. to become how we used to be again............
if only...yea.if only theres an only.
i said the words,i had to be responsible for it aint it.and nw we really are drifting apart...everything changed.
even they can sense that we arent like how we used to.
thats sad.

anw....my pri school fren is in the same poly as me!
the first tym i saw him,i didnt call him for fear of seeing the wrong ppl
and i was blind enough nt to notice him the last tym i was chatting up wit pita.
lols he said he was just right infront of me,gosh.how could i have missed that.
missed all the funs our grp had last tyms lols.tts a long way back...
the one who whistled always look on e bright side of life to mi whenever im down.
hmhm.. (:

2008-02-15T10:05:00.000-08:00

gonna blog sth quick since its 2 in the morning now.
annnd my bro and dad not back yet . =.="
so day spent with elen was great.
met at ps den to vivo.
so sorry for being uper duper late!
brought some stuffs for my room and had dian sums for lunch den offf to vivo lo..
after that had dinner with parents at heartland..
ytd was V.day and i spent my day working at 5 ='= instead of spending the day with friends which we used to in the previous years hahas.
..couples like everywhere?was so sweeet.hahas
and my supervisor was so damn great today!
first tym so hardworking sia!even swept and mop floor with me..mayb its because of V.day?lols.
damn cute la she...
hmm gt 2 angbaos frm there only lols.
maybe cause theres too many part timers this yr.
last yr my bro gt damn lotsa.cause seemed like he was the only part timer at that time hahas.
next week soo goona catch L change the world with elen! X)
wanted the leapt years too ..still pondering if its a good catch..
anw kung fu dunk was damn ubber nice!
jay chou acting is like soooo damn it great and funny lor!
the co-stars are like so cool too hahas.
anw cj7 is kinda funny but its like that show has gt no meaning..
my there de auntie thinks its damn nice..hahas.. cause she says its funny..
and ya..
and there was this day when i went to collect coins which was so fucking heavy abt 1500 bucks.went with the admin.was shocked that she actually has so much to talk abt ...!and she was damn funny la..
our here ALL girls lar..which is like disadvantaged when it comes to this kinda stuffs.
used to be a guy go take derhs but he quitted le.so sianns..
13th feb we all lao yusheng at pop!
only me and chelsea two part timer so was kinda fun as long as theres no that bitch hahahah.
everyone high after drinking beer..
didnt expect them to be like so wild..except for ahem a few who has the beer queen look lar hahas.
after that quickly rush down cause my dads motor spoiled and ended up waiting with my aunt and uncle ..
took uite some time for the mechanices and ppl to reach then they went home first lo.
very good lo.. acc me wait for my dad though we kept telling them to go home first..hehes.
hmm.. i guess u just dunno the meaning of ____.
well, just let this be a lesson learnt.
what u said shocks me lar sia.expect someone to be so big hearted ehs?
NVM! since i alred said OK.. which i REGRETS.cause it shouldnt be like this in the first place u just fucking dont understanding "it"..
blueh
tml ..or rather today night gonnna go for dads company dinner.woohoo! X)
and sun..maybe gna help my bro go work..?
hes quitting soon too..
siians...

2008-02-09T07:37:00.000-08:00

back from malaysia!had a great time,with my cousins etc..and all those cute babies haha went to city square to shopp..ate at the seasons.which i thnk is nice.. :3 then walked to the custom....
anw back trip was helll..going there was more smooth sailing.hahas
hated it when those ppl just jump into the Q at malaysia custom. ='=
going out with family tml and the next of my week will be work X3
but might b meeting elen first on monday for a quick movie?hahas
too bad didnt get to go bai nian at zy housie with xy and agnes. :( missed out the fun?
catch up some days for some wildX2 wet or summthng?haha
hmm,read ur archives poost and it really sets me wondering why?
i had wished we could still be but is really impossible after the driftingsssssss etc ehs..?
poly shall starts another new thang.new friends new subjects i guess it must be greater than sec where the subj sucks
hahas
mayb i should just stop hanging to the olds,the old times and treasures the news instead,i meant the present ,, friends :O ..
im thnking of quitting at the end of this mth..just because im getting sick of these stuffs..
really tired when it comes to arranging like just fin a war,caused by those 'customers'
they aint right,always.
the rest still okie?i love tagging and stock check the best bahs?hahas
anw this job sucks ..well,which jobs don't?
so mayb im just gonna hang on to this till poly starts? shians..

2008-02-01T08:29:00.000-08:00

so,out with xy and agnes on wed was nice :)
met at compass den headed off to far east..
we even planned to meet up another time for some fun activities rather than just shopping hahas.elen wants wild wild wet.
hehes
thurs was the last day for my colleague.was damn sad luhs!
shes damn good lor.
caring and damn hardworking and very good tempered..
she quitted cause of her childrens.can never tell shes married with children somemore lor.
b4 i joined i even tot she was abt 20 plus hahas.
will miss her lots..cause its really hard to find sucha damn good person lor!
ok,anw tml going out with yu jl and her bf..
hope its a good one..but with him ard vhigh percents of unhappiness bahs?
u know,it really feels strange that up to now i still care.
that the fact that im no longer in ur best friend league still bothers me.
though it seems like decades when we started ...not meeting up or sometimes we just dun chats in msn or sms no more.
because i still care.i still wna knows updates of yours.
and its really sad where im no longer included.
hmhm..
ok and ya i wna bitch abt this gal.
where almost all part timers hate her.
i dont thnk shes good either but nt to the extent of really hating her to the core.
but after today i totally hates her,a nut bitch! totally
no wonder so many hates her.
so fake when boss ard act hardworking.
when boss nt around she can go to such freaking extent of what she shouldnt do..
i totally understand the staffs feelings now lols.
hates to see her nahs. thnk shes a princess or sth. argghs * like shiat

2008-01-12T21:58:00.000-08:00

had been busy with work and when i have off days im out!
so long didnt had any time to update.
fri my cousin came and stay over.was soooo happy! X)
had been real long since i met her.cause of our whole family working so didnt went back malaysia.
intended to meet at causewy point but i nine plus den wake up.,
she reached damn early hahas
so met her at hg instead .
her first time to hg and she even noe where to stop and walk to hg mall.
i had said to meet her at interchange,
so shock when she told me she in already haahs so smart lor,,
den went to have breakfast and shopped.we brought afew tops.after tt back home,.
com-ed awhile den went to ps to watch linger.
not really nice.like so complicated etc.
shopped ard den went vivo lo!
she wanted to go there hahas went candy empire brought some choc den went shop awhile jiu go off meet my family 4dinner le since it was vlate already so didnt really get to shop ard vivo.guess next time then.
went eat picollo den home!
next day also whole day out,
went heartland shopp brought few tops again den went to sp and tp de open house.
since shes interested in knowing more abt the school.
after that went amk hub shopp! :P
today..after coming back from sk cc,few hrs ltr den she going back malaysia le.sad lor..but nvm can see her again sooooon..!
tml no work!planning to go out with elen hehes.mayb gna watch legrand chef,
and i gt my pay few days ago.500+ only..slogged like hell..
hahas actually worth it nahs for i work 12 days only.muahahas
really had this BIGGGGG urge to quit my fucking job.the staffs there are good but just too demanding for the job and my boss sucks.TOTALLY mood swings all the time @.@
so its a great new year and i hope everythng goes smoothly this yr.
last yr had been kinda ...'arqqh' where i wished ..well.what had happened had happened.where nth can change these facts etc so im just gna put it behind me. :)
p/s: i missed you.

2007-11-26T22:51:00.000-08:00

2nd post for the day! wna blog abt outing ytd hahs.
went to amk hub with elen. we caught hero. which was kinda nice.
so hilarious at first..
den slowly was more of an emotional screening.
after that went shopping.
whoa spent quite alot. over 100 plus
which sums up to my 33 hrs of work..
this week only working for two days..
hmm,, i would ratheer work more haahas to earn back what i had spent.
had brought two tshirts one top and 3 botttoms.
after that went back home
planning to go back there on thurs to buy somemore and maybe afer that go to east mall or point or whatever u cal it.
wonder when i can get my stuffs from the online buyers.
hope it fits kekekes
xiao zhu concert this sat!
which is kinda fast?
lucky theres no work on sat.sooo looking forward to it.ROFL
and look there should be and there must be a reason for not liking something and not wanting something arent it?
its not possible to not like this show, dont wanna catch it dont like this clothes etc.
if its imperfect to you?imperfect or better ones can be a reasons.
but al you can say is NO REASONS with that kinda tone.
like IAM THE ONE IN THE WRONG?
FOR CAUSING YOU TO NOT LIKE THAT? i hate it! totally irks me when all you can say is NO REASONS,
IF THERES NONE THE Y WONT U JUST WATCH IT WITH ME? OR WHATEVER THE SITUATIONS HAPPENS TO BE.
I DONT GET IT.
THERE SHOULD BE A REASON TO THE CHOICE,AINT IT. u chose it u think that way, i dont understand y theres no reason,
if ur boss or whoever ask u why u never do this work. u said no reasons? is that it?
its just so rude.arggggh. whatever.sometimes i just dont know whats on your mind!
so irritating!my laptop caught the fucking virus or whatever it is.
for downloading song and games i think.
and theres just so many windows popping up, calling to download all those anti virus things! cant even use my lt in peace.even changed my wallpaper and i cant get it back.
intruding my privacy and everything! bla bla bla.

2007-11-26T22:32:00.000-08:00

so..today finally had all the time in the DAY to use computer and finally blog!
last wed was my first day of work and worked from 1015 to 10. which was so tiring! pratically, just tag pricing all the stocks,stacking them up..and anythng tt is messy arrange them back.
had to arrange rearrange again and again.
y cant ppl put the things they dont want back.this just shows how inconsiderate ppl can get.
well,i was one in the past too.but nw i know the feeling of seeing thngs that i took so much effort to tidy,destoryed almost in a few minutes which is so fucked up derh.
my two supervisors are soooo nice! all the staffs there are nice too.friendly, nice to be with. doesnt give youngsters black faces etc.what more can one ask for. :)
first day almost everythng i dunno where the thngs are when customers ask. hello,they are finding some alien stuffs.
nevertheless my supervisors knows it all.
hate it when ppl wanna buy the parker/shafer pen refills. havda open the glass casing den help them search for it thn bring it to the cashier counter -_-
first day of work and ended up so freaking tirred with pains on legs! so tiring to having stand 9 hours.
2nd day and 3rd day was perfectly all right.on my 3rd day i could response to whoever wanted the thngs cause its nt alien stuffs.
except for one stupid customer who asked for whatever happy birthday wrappers.
so i brought her to the wrappers sections and she gave me a lj face.saying she wants gift wrapper.
hello,u didnt mention it in the 1st place.
so i returned her the fucked up face aand show her wherever all the GIFT wrappers are.
some can be so unreasonable.
my superviso said so too lols. thay think we are not human.tryingti find all those rubbish things that u dont expect in popular.
there was one lady who wants an smaller a4 file but pockets are a4 so as to fit into her child bag.hello, where on earth got sia when what she was holding already is an a4 file diao.and some says they can find this fid that in other populars den y nt get their ass off and go to the place where they found the stupid thngs they want.
so pissed off.havda put up with them ,but for the sake of money hahas its ok!
wooking 3days earns mi over 100 plus.
of course im nt there for the experience.
those who work in office says they are there for the experience.hello la, what ya working nw.its all those trival2 thngs. do ya expect to do the same stuffs few years down the road.thats purely shiat.whats there to experience? how to lick ppls boot?different working circumstances definitely comes with different experience! -_-'''
face up to it. who wna work if nt for the money. to be able to buy all the thngs tt i wna buy!yea.
too long post on work! gna end .

2007-11-19T02:17:00.001-08:00

today wnt out with xy.
really great day!had many thngs to chat abt hahas.
and we brought many stuffs..
met up at cp. but due to e raining we went to eat first since e place tt we intended to go have no friking shelter.
went to macd had lunch den off we went.
wen we reached just a drizzle.
went to e flower shop first to ask e ppl there if they r employing ppl
they said they want wad pr, and must be able to work at least half a yr.eventually we went quite afew shops to look if xy can work there.
all says they wnt permenant.
gt one shop stated there big big they r hiring but when xy ask them they said no
den what for put that notice there!
gonna meet her again sooon..when she have rest day .

ps// but maybe i still does n0t wish to face up to reality..
to my promise... sorry. give me time..or even stop... just so not worth it.

2007-11-19T02:12:00.000-08:00

so..went out with parents today...
went to giant to had our lunch cum dinner there.
after tt wanted to go giant buy things but Q is always v long so ended up going to..pg plaza de ntuc.
brought all those tibits drinks etc.
so unlucky even e fuckin lifts are spoilt and we brought so manny things.
because of the heavy rain in e afternoon, basement are flooded.
and theres one shop tt seems to suffr alot loss..so suayyyyyyy.so sucky even those firemen lifts or goods lobby also spoilt.
then went home to catch hero.etc

2007-11-19T02:06:00.000-08:00

today..went out with family to buy stuffs for work.
bought a pair of shoes.since i had noneand two bottoms! plus one top hahas
e staff there is so eager to sell their clothes!
keep give me, and my bro.even my mum. keke
den keep pester mybro sign up for e membership which costs thirty five bucks.
bt e benefits look great whooo.
so in e end we took it.
after that had dinner.
had it at ten!which was considered really late?FOR DINNER.
went to my aunt food court there to eat.
there had quite a lot of different food. and it sells those seafood etc tt we can found in those non airconditioned ones.
kekes too bad missed prince hours and zhou ri 8 dian dang!..
after that home sweeet home! =)

2007-11-14T05:06:00.000-08:00

today,we went far east to shopp!

i like this jumper!but didnt brought it..
took quite a long time to decide but didnt brought it in e end.
maybe waiting till theres something even nicer.kekes
eventually elen brought a vest and me, a cardigan and top.
e vest suit her! look nice on her hehs..
tml..maybe going job interview with xy or going out wid mum.
i gt a job le but its nt as ideal as wad i wanted in e first place..better than nth!since theres no need to search for it.kekes
but i promised her that i would go job hunting with her.
hope she get the job ..even though different shops bt anyway its e same shopping centre.
hahas can get to meet..
and yea i finally found someone to watch game plan with me!!
most probably next week .bt since im starting work on wed so hope can get to watch it.
kinda miss huiyu.heehs wonder if she have any intrest in watching the show.hmhm
and it had been a really lonnnng time since i went out with pita. :((
except for ocassionals smsing though.
currently... watching magicians of love again!
yea so im off to it =)

2007-11-12T20:09:00.000-08:00

so,finally can spend e whole days using com
had been so lazy hahas
finally Os are over but its over in a flash kinda regret nt trying even harder but wad to do its already over dumbo.
just hope everythng turns out fine!
i wanna watch game plan!and waitng for hero to be screened.
bt elen oni wna watch hero =(
who wanna watch it?hehs
currently..watching magicians of love so nice. to me.

2007-03-09T22:28:00.001-08:00

finally can get in to internet.had wireless problems e past few days.
got back report books .failed two.. gt a naggin from my dad. I just ignore and con watch tv.everytym say the same thng nt bored de.hehs
lucky dun havda mit parents if not confirm more scoldin.
tues went to contem but just sat there cause left 1 hr oni hehs. i skipped thurs parctice again .hais.. my mum keep force mi go back and to thnk abt it ya i really shud.after all the hard training bruises n everythng for the past 3 yrs its realli a waste if i stopped going.had stopped for so long and parents just discovered only.hais..was glad e tcher say as long as i gt perform for syf she will gif mi 2 pts.hehes.
hadnt been going out with elen cause of her practices and others stuffs.
friday was kinda in a nt so gd mood.forgot to sign the two forms.lucky not just me.and then in e morn oso gt naggin frm dad and everythng so ya sorry for mood swings if there was any.and fri was oso the last day having eng class with vicky so sian wan..she dunwan miss lam to teach her either .so suay wan.everytym i got partner den sth lyk these havda happens
wed went cp wid jl. i wanted mos burger n she says she dun wna eat den after eatin n chatting she wna go burger king.lamak. shud have says so. i knew in e end she will eat wan la.everytym tell mi dun wan eat nt hungry.
its stupid of why she still loves him even after sooooo mani stuffs everythng a guy shouldnt do to a gal,he did it.
and she still loves him.wth.
wads the point of keep crying and in frnt of him?just cry and get over it la.just lyk wad every1 do.no matter how we persuaded her all just fall on deaf ears.
1 wont die wo having guys so stop asking mi why n why.
going back to school on tues thurs n fri lucky i dropped chem.7 hours sia.
dunno got any contem practices ma.that time e tcher was plannin for it .
aahh i wna watch movie!! thnk going with vien.and jl.they wan messenger.but i wanted to catch im a cyborg but thats ok.nvm can go watch tt with elen =))
but owaes neva go in e end because of some reason.had wanted to go vivo wid elen bud she gt e meeting so i went home.reached home at ard twelve plus sia.1st tym so early ler.........lucky bro at hm if nt im gonna b sooo bored to death wo internet somemore!
today went back school just for e forms aahh..den after tt went heartland have bf den went back home. my posting is here and there all mixed up because i just typed whatever that kums to my mind.so thats y its so disorganised heh.urghh.
3D angel is so nice.. but mons last epi.tianhua is so cool haahas frust tym samne opinion as zhiyu.eh nope 2nd tym.her taste stange2 wan heehs.
vien suddenly says to go out n watch movie now.so we are waiting for jl .

2007-03-02T22:06:00.001-08:00

im back to blogging cause i owaes have nth mucha do when i on e com.
hmm..spent sucha long tym to find the skin i liky bests.
zhiyus birthday!went out and celebrate hers n xys bdae.
wanted to go somewhere further wan but she agnes n maria havda go back school at 3.was so rush.
intended to lunch at pizza hut but it was full, yoshi too
so decided to go hk cafe der.they all keep complaining abt e foods.
cause its too cheapskate yet costs so much.but overall it was kinda great.even over e time limit.hehs
n ya im soory if id left u out.ur too quiet lar.i would v much hope ud chat alot with them,and me.
i really regret everythng ,i shouldn have lend u anythng in e first place.
the two of u are drivin mi crazy.real nuts.
i really dun understnd y ur so irresponsible. i thought u were thats was why i lend u my fone
u spoiled it u ruined everytng in it,U RUINED MY DAY.
i dunno why i just cant get angry in front of you.
but this is realli over e limits aite.
my results for ct1 is like oh fuck.
i dropped chem n yet i flunked my physics f9.
i flunked amaths social studies.thnk i havda meet parents this time round.its like so sure.
hais.
zys bdae present.she lyk watching jin san shun n tt guy hehs.

2006-11-15T21:19:00.000-08:00

14th tues
went hp wid elen..met ard morn den had our lunch cum breakfast. shop ard nth much to shop arhs.. wna buy tt bag=] brought sum stuffs den went back home lo at ard 2 sth which was kinda early den wanted go find jl bud she goin tm wid her stead..so haish went home.
15th wed
went vivo wid elen! went to e same place we ate last tym total was 12+.. just a choc milk shake n fish chips.so crowded der todae,, den after tt went shop2..wna buy sum stuffs home bud didnt saw anythng we lyk much.den b4 went home go to candy empire buy e choc pick n mix! wha kinda nice..bud just afew n it costed mi 6$ lols.hada great dae nevertheless..went out der walk ard n sat down chat2 after shopped fin.. den went home!
16th thurs
nth mucha .stayin home e whole dae 2dae!lazy go out..mayb next wk.. X)..
just usin com n watch tv n read e kite runner.bored ahsia.dunno shud change fone nt..nice luhs dec still so long =((.. goin back malaysia i suppose ard dec tt tym..haahs soo long since we last went back..

2006-11-12T17:15:00.001-08:00

6th mon
went to cp have lunch wid zhiyu.. met at 12 wen our maths lesson is at 1..she thnk we can fly lyk tt.. -_-"' den havda eat damn fast she kip laugh3 ahs siahs..eat slower den mi!..lols den took mrt to punggol change bus. saw 136 den ran ahs si since we were late den damn paisehs haahs to zy la.kux duno y tt driver wanted to drop peeps off..bud instead he drop off at e station 136.lyk wth.den took 62 instead was crapping & chattin all e way.hahas den wen reach skol..lucky ahs nt realli vlate..heews
7th tues
wha 2dae dun havda go skol..havda go skol on wed thurs & fri..
went to have bf at macd.
went to cp wid elen.initially wna go vivo bud in e end stayed at starbucks 4 e whole day studyin chem.. nth much ahs,just tt eventually we didnt study anythng at all..lols
8th wed
have chemistry retest & den later on have chem supplementary, chem retest kao its exactly e same as e EOY wan.. & i tot ms chia said no way is chem gonna b e same?..
i didnt study e eoy paper kux i even 4gt to bring back e paper.den i go read tb ahs siahs.hope can pass hahas kux i still could remb sum of e ans ..den after tt have chem at 130.. so funny ahs siahs.zy & xy kip msg mi abt e chem.how to reply wen i gt test at tt momment??lols.
den zy was lyk so angry abt e changin if tyms.kip complain complain de.. hahas =X
was lyk so tirin ..chem was kinda bored..did sum wksheets den wen she checkin hu wrote wrong or wadeva ..she said out e names..bla3.. den suddenly she said my name too.i was wonderin wth where gt wrng ah sia. den in e end my ans was exactly e same as her wad! fck. den went locker put e eng bk.den ms chia say dun put her wksheets in e locker ahs lols. =0
9th thurs
2dae has ss retest..e essay qn was abt e sri lanka de.den i go read & mem e merger & seperation.saw jl n vien in e morn den jl told mi their tcher cal dem go mem e sri lanka wha too late to read le.den just 4get it noe nuts abt it luhs.hmm..after it ended wanted to rush to return jls de notes scared she went off oreadi ahs kux shes owaes lyk tt owaes in a rush.den in e end cannot leave yet den ms see cal my name hei ps ah sia lucky nt alot saw i suppose so.. =P den after tt went hg mall wid elen.had been goin hg mall tis few daes..hmhm..den go eat bf & damn damn it saw him.wth
e momment i saw him i turned away ah sia kux i would wonder how awkward its gonna b if we dun even say a hi to each other i dunwna imagine tis kinda stuffs..hmhmh..i doubt u would ahs u would just look & turn i suppose so.wha as if i care la.ur just a dong gua wahahaas. oor rather just a bro
10th fri
gt amaths retest so diff! to mi its even more diff den e EOY or mayb kux i didnt study..hmhm
tis tym sure fail le.& if i fail i wonder do i havda go 4 those remedial stuffs.haish so unfair ahs sia i passed oreadi ms ong still wan mi to go take retest.boderline pass oso pass muahs.53.haish.
tis tym surely flunk liaos lahs..haish.......................i wrote lots of rubbish ah siah,,..flunked it.
den after e maths ended rush off kux my dad gonna fetch mi.goin cp since ders still 3hr plus to chem supplementary.lazy go home..alone all e same.
den went to have bf at food court.brought milk tea 1st..so damn bored ahs den just msg 2 wid elen & jl while eatin.
after tt went lib wait 4 elen kum she came at 12 den chem lesson at 130 haahs lucky gt ample tym since we nt goin eat le.den wen goin mrt der saw lupp! & hailey hees den chat 4 awhile went off to skol luh..reached skol at ard 125 den just walk slow2..until 135 oso nobody came so we just went up kux saw miss chia..den sth disasterous happened.hahas..every1 lyk so sad over tt especially ms chia soo angry too. leave all tt to wen skol reopens since not much noe abt tis kux just a pathetic ten came wha so mani didnt kum sehs n i tot oni sum didnt go.after tt go hg mall wid zy n elen .zy went off soon after buyin her stuffs..den on e way to hg mall saw lupp & hailey again.lols.todae bumped into dem 2 tyms..hees den same chat awhile den went off le..
had our lunch at hg mall den walk2..den went home at ard 7plus.
11th sat
went heartland wid dad & bro..had our bf den buy bubbleti den went off after my bro brought his score.addicted ahs sia.saw newspaper gt promotion on singtel fones.wha nokia 5300 den my dad kal singtel ask den in e end i can oni upgrade at 3rd dec.haish so much 4 e joy dunno still gt promotion nt ..havda wait so long.hahs
12th sun
nth much went to rivervale plaza wid family..had bf den went ntuc buy thngs den went back home lo..had a splittin headache 4 e whole dae..watched channel u at 2p wan.nth much ahs kinda few singers turned up lyk tt..den slept again watched tv again frm 7 to 11.wha e 7p show damn nice luh bud so fast gonna b last episode liaos. watched ultimate comedian.as expected luh e winner bud i tot ying ying was much more better.revival rd 2 tyms she oso gt back in n shes lyk so kute lo n she performed better.hahas
13th mon
haish bored alone at home,nt goin out todae luh goin vivo wid elen on wed! den goin back c results on fri.sians.
gonna use com 4 e whole dae lo n tv! hees readin kite runner tis few daes which was recommended by lit tcher.a damn nice bk luh.touchin & huntin hahas bud still haven finish i take a damn long tym to read.bored bored blogged 4 e whole wk luhs! had been busi 4 e past few wks.,...,.

2006-11-03T22:37:00.000-08:00

2dae nth much to do ahs.

just usin com watchin tv & chattin wid jl..

sooli ahs lupp cant go cp kux im goin out wid my family.

goin white sands ltr again kux my bro is workin 2dae again.

&& goin out wid jl & co on e 23rd i suppose..watchin movie agaiin!ya y m i so happi tt we r goin out.haish had been a lil long since we last went out bud nt as long as mi n lup ): had been lyk more den half a yr or so since we last went out le bahs i suppose. too bad lupp cant go kux shes goin back indo le ahs

23rd still soo long sehs....

2006-11-03T21:53:00.000-08:00

whole week. [:
mon ended skol at ard 2. started intensive e tym was lyk passin sooo slow..
morn mi n jl went canteen buy drinks den go e bench der sit.
everytym i walk pass u i wished tt u would say a hi to mi or wadsoever bud sumtyms u just 4gt.wanted to say hi de bud how awkward its gonna be..
n alamak ahs 4gt gt e maths.
tues ended ard 23o after intensive went bugis wid elen.ate pastamania..den go shop2.
we brought 2 tops each & i brought a clock..a dog shakin his head wan hahas so cute.
spent so much 2dae liaos..
wed
went tm.elen wanted to buy e wallet shop de pencil case bud no stock to e 1 tt she like de.
had pastamania 4 lunch den went home.
thurs ended ard 2sth & fri ended ard 130 i went home alone ahs siah..elen zy dey all go guzheng .den after tt waited 4 elen to have lunch met at 4 sth at 1st wna go vivocity bud she cant kux too late le so just ate der & walk2.
i realli hope tis frenship remains.or rather were as close as b4.much as i luv my frens nw.we were once sooo close.comin to thnk of it.i realli2 miss e tyms we had.&& i saw lups posts.was realli touchin ah siahs.im soo glad tt u still remb mi ahs siahs i tot u ..ya.mayb its true tt in different classes our frenship fades . i tot bein in diff klx we could still spend our recess n after skols 2gataha .bud has had different tyms or soo .bud i nev 4gt u jl n co.even though i still do go wid jl.. thnkin of e pasts ,how close we were..were just so sad ahs.nth can replace tt.
im soo glad wen u updates ur happenins to mi =))

2006-10-28T00:22:00.001-07:00

bored ahs.
went to had breakfast todae at rivervale plaza den brought sum stuffs went back home.
watched last episode of e adventure of wisely ..
den continue watch another show at channel u.
nth to do ahs so decided to blog. doin pratically nth nw.just playin sum games n chattin..
ltr goin white sands again.havda wait 4my mum to kum home.even havda work on sat.
hmhm i hope tt der will b nomore misunderstandin.. =)) dun ever2 feel xtra 4 godness sake. no1 ever feels so so just rest assured.
gonna go out wid jl n vien n of course huiyu one of these daes.
catchin up to dos wid vien n yu n ur neo is still wid mi [: just chatted wid jl recently.did tt most of e tyms bud just tt had been kinda long since we last did tt.shes so engrossed in .. .. maple. hahas chatted so loong &&& we still gonna have so much stuffs to chat abt <33s!
nnn i realli hoped tt we could still been best frens bud it seems lyk u had had soo mani frens wid u tt u no longer needs mii.i realli missed e tyms we had together.n e laughter we once shared..n ya `~tis arent referin to anybody i mentioned here.
goin bugis again wid elen.mayb tues . pastamania ehs .. X)
soo bored -_- ZZz

2006-10-27T06:39:00.000-07:00

gonna tok abt e whole week ..skol is owaes e same n shant blog any abt skool.
monday tuesday n wed was allrite..cant remb le.mon went rivervale mall have lunch n brought bubbleti back home.tues cant remb went where// den wed went rm again kux we wna buy pen.2gatha wid elen ahs
thurs had a greeeeat day went to vivocity. sum unpleasent stuffs took place bud shant mention it le lo. caught rob b hood.wanted to catch deathnote bud elen was lyk scared tt it would b too scary i doubt it would though.n another was DOA bud she didnt wan n chosed rob b hood eventually.brought e tickets n off we go to have my bf cum lunch n her lunch.was starvin lyk hell.fcuk.
walk n walk bud it was damn freakin big couldn find burger king so went n eat at ..duno wadeva its called.had fish n chips n drink luh total was ard 20++..had a full view of e sea
wanted to eat ppiiza! bud no place sit.
den after tt shop awhile..went out of vivocity.
gt sumthng lyk beach bud its fake de ahs.i mean ders no sand bud ders sea. den just sat der chat2.. walked ard e sea.. spent a loong tym der den off we go to catch e movie luh.wad.y shud i even care or bother or even wan tt guy to sit bside mii.u tok tooloud my dear. n anyway it was lyk so damn funny.. n e baby was sooooooo cute!..
kinda nice movie overall bud an old movie mayb hahas e aircon was once again seems breakdown n e theatre was a much smaller wan.duhs. -_-"' after watch movie went back home lo.. had much fun tt dae =))
todae!
went bugis wid elen zhiyu n xy.
met at hou mall den had bf at macd.
took 80 la.was lyk soo rush kux e bus arrived n it slipped my mind tt we shud b takin e other direction.lols. soo glad tt no1 blames.or rather mYB u did.
hmhm..loong journey ahs siahs.
reached den shop n shop.
xy was kip sayin go go go.wonder WHERE she wna go.
&&amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;amp;& if u still wna continue c..tell em dey tot u didnt wan.2dae was just fine =/
had fun though ..yea..
den went to buy stuffs eat den go take prints again.
went b1 b4 goin home..thnk i saw my cousin bud didnt smile or say hi mayb kux i arent sure if it was him n he arent sure if it was mi i guess.den went back.
zy n xy alighted at hou while mi n elen at cp
went starbucks buy drinks mine costed 6.40.
spent soo much these few daes.
den went accom elen take bus..sat n sat at bus interchange wait 4my family.tot thru much stuffs.
n anyways ders no point in lookin back
den dey finally came after work waited ard half hr lazy go walk2.alone sumor den at frust wna go lib bud gt my drink.
went n ate.busy msgin elen zhiyu n darren ahs..lols.n my fone memory is so godamnit full.havda kip delete n delete.
mayb sum msgs shud had long b erased bud i noe..i just duno y i cant bring myself to delete it n forgettin everythng n every memories of urs..
after eat went back home luhs.finally gt tym 4my blog had been too lazy n tired to blog .n yea ur puttin toooo much pressure on mi.. stressed up at tyms.or rather most.ders owaes prob uploadin my fotos.arqqhs

2006-10-20T07:16:00.000-07:00

todae went to white sand wid elen.haahs.
met up at my hse der since we are takin bus frm my der.went to e blk der c if ders e piggi which elen wna buy 4 her sis.hahas so sooli i didnt noe it wasnt e excatly wan.
took 89 reached der quite fast.i met her at ard 11 which was kinda early had our bf cum lunch at e food court n how pissed she was abt tt auntie.so freak de..
after tt went lib walk few round.n saw wad seems to b a art.lols still say is a parrot or bird so artistic siahs
go to a few shops.she wanted to buy tt door hanger which was kinda nice bud decided to buy it next tym.brought sum earrings she brought a buttterfly 1 n..another blue de.i brought a boy gal pair n two diff crowns.haahs..der wasnt much to shp ahs.sat on wadeva bench we can c der n chatted 4 long2.
intially wanted to go bugis de bud decided to go next wed wid zhiyu elen xy jas siyun n maria i suppose.so just sat der.spent e whole day der.den went to macd slack2 was so damn it cold..
ard 5sth took 89 go cp..
nth much to shop behs den just walk a few rounds den go accom her take bus home.met up wid my parents n bro n had our dinner der.saw my skol mate hu look so lyk my bro!shit too bad my bro was at e sing pools derr.haish missed e chance to c his replica hahas
after tt went b1..thnk i saw HIM!! oni saw his backview bud i suppose its him.working ahs wid a bread in his mouth wakakas.do hope its him.everytym i wna c he ll either b bentin down or facin e other side too bad ahs.bud his backview..shud b him ahs.lols
den after buyin sttufs went back home.so tired out bud todae i saw him.hahahhahas so must blog abt him to remb tis dae lols soooo long since i last saw him haish..=))

2006-10-19T05:32:00.000-07:00

wha so damn bored had been usin comp since e afternoon
chattin fs blogging n playin games.
since im still on might as well post another.
well if u wna have no contacts wid mi no more ignorin all my msgs or wadsoeva den y even bother to hihi to mi.duno wad u wan luh fuck.i dun even noe if we r still frens or wadsoeva.u have ur stead luh so y even bother huiyu.
den wen i wna reply u oreadi off le.half an hr ltr den i replied.thnk we just have no fate to chat or wadsoeva lols
chattin wid ling n jk n edmund nw..
bored2..wna slp le.hahas

2006-10-19T02:31:00.000-07:00

nth much..
went to 3 farms.haish missed e frog farm.
vegetables fishes n otah is wad we c everydae wad.frog is one which we doesnt c everydae.den e air con lyk break down lyk that hahas.so damn it hot.
go all e farms oso saw jl n co.thanks 4 ur otah ahs jl. X)
walked n walked..jx n rest kip take foto..hahas.wanted to take minyi pic den she kip hide behind us!!wanted to post e pics bud my fone nt workin again.cant send it to my comp again.infarred gt problem ahs!..
nth much ahs..went back to skol at ard 12 sth..
took sum pics again.. :] after tt went to cp wid elen..eat oreadi walk den go home lo.
just nw online chatted wid jai!!n how i missed her soooo!!<333s>
chatted 4 quite long arhs..n oso wid elen zhiyu n darren..
dun worry abt ur results arhs.wont retain de.=)) had been worryin abt it 4 so mani daes n do hope e worst wont happen which im sure he wont arhs.
zhiyu crappin ahs!dun 4get ahs monday sing live 4mi.hahas u promised hughs
chatted wid elen damn long oso.haish.. owaes say mi n him.i neva say u n him den u kip say mi hughs!next tym must revenge hahas.
finally my bloggi once again alive niaox lors!
never had a dream kum true till e day tt i found u.hahas.nice song btw.
tmrw goin out wid elen.zy dey all owaes dun wna go out de

2006-10-18T05:32:00.000-07:00

todae
durin pe lessons xy was actin lyk such a bitch.bud i aint angry wid her no more.lols.my anger will oni last 4..AWHILE.its true
went to hou point wid elen.intially was oni wid elen den jl accompanied mi too.to wait 4 elen.lols.shant tok abt wad happen..had our lunch n nth much.walk walk den go home lo.der was lyk sooo few shops der.
den morn xy told mi missy chia had asked her if i had said anythng abt my results or abt chem..was so glad n touched tat she asked n her concern (: n no way m i gonna drop tis sub though i flunked it so mani tyms.i neva wanted to disappoint her.hu noes everythng just came lyk wad i didnt expect.flunked chemistry again..
eoy nth much subjs tt i passed was just boderline passes.
had spent few hrs on my bloggiskins.wanted it to b different...
im losin every grasp n every memory of u fades..whereby im glad.memories n promises that hurts can b 4gotten just tt it took sum tym 4mi..i misplaced my love.i wished i could fckin collect all my tears tt u made mi cry n drown u in dem.ders owaes a tym to let go of everythng.
goin farms tml -_-'''

2006-10-15T22:46:00.000-07:00

kaes.back after 4 months of rottin.=))
too lazy to post since i didnt go out 2dae..gonna post.
finally eoy ended bud this tym i noe i gonna flunk badly kux i didnt study hard enuf..wadever.
gonna leave all these to tml
sunday
wha had a bad day.injured my knee.so damn it pain!!!!!fuck
thurs was a happi 1 though..heihei.
went out wid zhiyu elen n xinya.met up at cp den saw dickson n rest while waitin 4 xinya. went to tampanies mall.zhiyu lars wna go der.den insist on eatin kfc sumor.lols.den walk n walk to kfc.spent quite a long tym der.crappin n stuffs den xinya n elen freezin to death.heihei.so we decided to go shop shop.
dey brought present 4 min yi.whose bdae is on ehs 15th.i didnt contribute any $$ though y shud i even care narhs.den walk to century square...took sum neos.ard 4 sth zy n xy wna go home lo.den mi n elen went to shop2 sit2..ard 6 sth den went home.took diff bus={ n i had to walk to libary der.gud la elen can take at interchange kekes
friday
elen came my hse der n we went rivervale mall had our lunch as well as breakfast.had a great dae=))
todae
nth to do todae since i cant go out bkux of my knee..at frust wanted to go hp wid elen de..
den had no choice.nth to do at home le.just cattin wid elen changin my blog skins since i had so much tym n co related stuffs!

2006-06-21T03:41:00.000-07:00

20th june.
met up wid huiyu n jl.watched r.v.hmm..wanted to catch almost lurv or just my luck.
bud none was on n just my luck screen on22nd..
r.v was a great show.kinda funni n jl was laughin lyk hell?hmhm..
had a great dae nevertheless..=))
didnt met up wid dem.just knew it de la.
went to eat at macd..chatted 4 so long.abt tt bloody guy.
stupid of him..he dunno wads e best 4 him hughs.so be it.
just wen i tot everythng would.............
i tot i could.. 4get everythng.bud e mommet i saw u =[

after e movie went to far east..

had to rush amaths hw.haiis.

只想爱你=]

2006-05-10T01:03:00.000-07:00

9th may
yea..back.
full hse realli rawks..hahas..rain!!
watchin wid lupp n vien was so fun n njoyable.jus hope dey felt so too..
hmm..still have..4 episodes to go..
fun watchin while eatin n swearin all e wae..
laughin all e wae..wid vien hu owaes shout..
watchin full hse wid lupp n vien is great!!gees..<3333333
8th may
freakin dae.
mayb i'll neva go out wid u couple again..unless..bkux of him..
how scary wen e polices came..urgghs..
8th may
exams r finally over,.
wanted to njoy badly bud again e dae was spoiled by dem again...
hais..sianxx..
10th may
mayb.der realli is such thng as retribution..karma..
wad u did to mi n hy..is e tym u learn ur lesson n get it back?wad goes round kums round..
i neva tot u could sacrificed so much for love..
i neva tot u would cry in e middle of e nyte..
i neva tot u would WAIT for a love tt might neva kums..
i neva tot u would love a gal so bloody much..
i neva tot u would walk down a street alone..
i neva tot u would felt lyk commitin sucide over a gal..
i neva tot u would need my shoulder 1dae
i neva tot u actually believed in 4eva love..
argghs.. wads this.
u changed n ur freakin scary..
u turned in2 a nytemare over a gal?
look i arent bein heartless.u jus dun understand..u dun even noe how he treated mi..u tot i was so coldblooded n hrtless?urghhs

2006-03-31T20:46:00.000-08:00

nth much to post!=]]
nth much took place nowadays.....

i flunked my physics again....sianx..
so mani upcomin tests...

2006-03-06T03:40:00.000-08:00

i owaes chose to regret wen everythng is gone..stupid ahhs...........
once u gave up sth,,no point regretin or turnin bac...
yea..yeap..
[[bu yao shou ni ai wo ni xiang wo ru guo ni de xin li mei you zhe mo zou zi shi mian qiang de fu yen wo wo zhi dao le hui hen nan shou]]
bored............last sat was mor bored..
mi n u..didnt even tok at all..wen will u eva utter a fuckin word to mi??fuck u narhhs..
jl n rbn...quarrelin again n again..deyy neva fails to get into a CATFIGHT..lols...
rbn n moi klxmate..so unreasonable..ppl lok at him oni n he havda say ppl diaox him..
owaes findin trouble n spoilin deir de dae..hmmmmm..
wen u told mi tt i must protect her..wad do ya mean?
im her frenx nt her bodiguard..
it hurts..fuckin hurtd..
im her frenx..i dun nid u to tell mi to protect her..of kours i will.,.bud i jus hate it wen it kums frm ur mouth..bla bla bla
if u wana protect her,go ahead..no1 is stopin u eitha..pls..i hate it..i hate it wen u kals mi to protect my frenx..
u kan do it..so y nt u b her stead?fuck u..
by nw..im sure..my feelins r fadin awae..no morr..no mor feelins 4 u..kux tt was e last straw..u still neva utter a word to mi..
so dun havda bother mitin up again..might as well dun..
since even after mitin,,we r still lyk strangers..
yea..i do hope ihav neva kwn u b4..i will definately b happier.....
bleauhhx

2006-02-17T19:33:00.000-08:00

OO..
HAD BEEN ages since i last blog..gonna start frm v.dae!!
14/02/06
jl met her bf n mi n lupp went to heartlan 2gatha..
we wanted to eat e lover set intitialy..
mi n lupp,jl n her bf..
lollx..bud it costs damn much..
so decided to hav e student set..enjoyed everydae wiid jl n lupp..owaes crackin joke..bla bla bla..den lup met up wid her b-f..swit of him to gave her tt..
den lupp cutted her hair..nice though..
e face is still derr..still chio muahhs..lolx
den shop2,met up wiid him 4 abt..15 mins??
hais,..its lyk mittin e president..jus so diff 2 mitt him huhhx..
4get it..
16-02-06
went wiid jl to fetch him frm his skol..wakao..
waited 4 damn long..n e prob was tt rbn didn noe jl was waitin 4 him..
luckily he didn went off..
his bus as late..
n hes jus as childish as eva..e couple..
tt dae as fun..xpecially in da bus..3 of us laughin lyk hell..n tt stranger laughed OUT LOUD too..
hmm..beginin to njoy every min n secs togatha..
owaes crackin jokes..n morr..
<3..
17-02-06
missed contem again..
jus dun havda mood to go 4 it..
so went to his skol again wiid jl n lupp..
saw him..well..y shld i b e 1 to wave or smile at him 1st?
i dun kare..
he was hangin out wid tt large grp of frens..
dani doesn look e same lyk ytd..lolx..
didn c tt contact LENSE todae..
TODAE--
goin out wiid tt couple n lupp 2daae..
gonna miss 74 de anniversary..sori tt i kant make it..hais..
bored3..
goin out later..

2006-01-19T02:50:00.000-08:00

2dae..siianx..jl is sick n lupp didn kum skol 2dae..
sorri 4 bein a bloody bitch..
sorri 4 offendin u..
sorri 4 nt wavin bac to u..
sorri 4 nt waitin 4 u..haiix..
jus realised tt our friendship is............so weak...
i tot we were klose..klose enuf..neber did i realised tt our frendship is so fragile..
dunn listen to wad others said especially those hu luv to tok big.action,act..
tis tym..mi in e wrong??mayb..or mayb nt..
i didn influence any1..4 sure..
no matter how much,how long i explain to u..u wont blif de..
nvm..i shant do anythng abt it..
qonna reflect on all tis..
p.s..u arent an ah lianx..
sorri 4 everythnq..is it over..no idea..

2006-01-17T04:30:00.000-08:00

qonna miss jai..shes qoin austra liiaox..
tot of noein her betta n b great frennx..
hmm..shes a great gal,though..
todae,,amirah is back..startin to miss jai lo...
e lessons were kinda bored..siianx ahhx..
commented in her bloq jus nw..denn suddenly tot of my blog..which wasnt updated since last week ba..haiix....quess every1 miss herr too..
miss my partner..no regrets noein herr..lolx..hmm..
bored ahhx....
sorri..lupp..4 kausin u to feel tt we r driftin apart..
i still luv u 4 hu u r..n i realli dunn wan aythng to kum btwn our frenship..
frennx we r n frennx we will owaes b..yahhx??
tt is e promise we had made..i guess..n i dun wann it to b brken eitha..jus lyk how he brke his..im sure tis wont happen to us..
realli sorri..jus tot tt u might b happier wiid her..
im stupid..
kux i owaes quiet2 one..den somtyms lyk siaox..
no morr misconceptions!!<3<3<3..
<3>

2006-01-07T20:27:00.000-08:00

has been rainin 4 e past few daes..siianx ahhx..
tml gt skol..n i haven done my hws yet..
social studies,physics,e.maths,enqlish..
so mani hws..
n tues is a holidae!!wonder qoin out wid hu??ha..
qoin 4 my dance laer..didn qo out wiid lupp 2dae..
nt in e mood eitha..lazi ahhx..lolx..
n im here..bloqqin..
so bored..no tv proqramms to watch..
no1 to chat wiid ahhx..lolx..
7/1/06
went to tui wiid lupp..
met up wiid her at mac..
a.maths...
realli..iish so damn diff..
dun understand wad e tcher is tokin sumtyms..
bud e tcher is qreat..the niece..
6/1/06
mornin run..
runned lyk hell..chattin wiid lup all e wae..
hmm..afta tt was lit..
n ss.. was qreat..
humorous n friendly..
physics tcher..strict bud qreat too..
lit..hmhm..gud..kann stay wiid lupp!!=)
chi tcher..hmhm..fine..kan b wiid 74!!
enq tcher..strict,qreat,n sumtyms humorous..
e wae she teach ish great!!ha..
n cs..dun lyk ts course..qonna change it to chem..
taught by ms chia!!!!
luv her teachin sehhx..she isda best too..
n jai has no frennx in chem..
kann b wiid her at e same tym too..
lastly..my form tcher aka e.maths tcher aka a.maths tcher..
she is strict..bud i luv her teachiin..qonna stay wid her 4 2 yrs..
tt iss wad she says..=)
hu else hax i missed out??
guess no morr..lolx..

2006-01-05T23:31:00.000-08:00

boredem kills..
todae went to hou mall wid lup..bud we went bac kinda early..
n nw..i m real bored!!
no1 iish at home..haix....
so broed bored bored..
actually..till nw i still duno y i would get upset wenn u couldn mitt up..
well..noe wasen urr fault..
i would b real stupid if i still lyk u..
real fool..
bloodi hell..upset wen u didn msg mi!!
jus kant get u out of my mind..

tis whole wk had been eatin kfc..
gettin sick n tired of kfc..
no choice..jl owaes make appointments at derr..

y contem everytym cancelled??ha..
though it is great..kann go out wid frens..
bud im kinda addicted to dance liiaox..
miss contem..upon countin..around 11 wks i didn attend le..haix..n dey tot i wanted to quit..
i didn go 4 contem last yr..no frennx ahhx..

wonder if i havda go 4 e oritation tml??......

2006-01-05T23:13:00.000-08:00

memory sux..
kip 4gettin everythng ahhx..die..even e username oso kan 4get..ha..
wasted so much tym on tis blog..jus to log in..
sorri to hurt u once again..u said u predicted tt my ans will b a no..
bud it realli isn..jus dunno how to tell u..wanted to said tt 3 words to u..bud wenn u told mi u lyk her..i decided nt to..nw u r tellin mi u jus treat her as a sis..n u xpect mi to blif it??sorri..no..i oni trust wadeva i c..u typed tt down..n i wont 4gt wad u said de..i trust myself..jus felt tt u hav feelins 4 her..n since everythng is over..gonna put it aside..
well..mi n him arent over..kux we didn even started..so dun misundestood..
todae was kinda fine..yeahhx..kinda bored kux jai wasen aroun bud still had lupp in lit klx..lolx..
3/1/06
beginin to lyk 3EB!!!!=))
2/1/06
glad tt i hav made sum frennx..
jai is a gud frennx..lolx..
e tchers r gud too..yati,amirah,zhiyu r friendly..heeew..
1/1/o6
a new yr..a fresh new start..
bud it dosen seems so to mi..
told mi tt u lyk her..
n i cried..
i dun even noe wad e hell i cried 4..
well..i gave u up 1st..im to blame..

2005-12-31T07:49:00.000-08:00

juxx sort of realised tt it had been ages since i last blog..
n yeahhx..thx khai..4 lettin mii realise tt..lolx..
well..nth happened..practically..he iish still e same..sissy..
every1 iish still e same..
e earth continues revolvin..
i continue my life..even without him narhhx..
hope to tell u tt everythng isnt over??
ha..fine..jus let it b..
too lazy to kare..
few morr mins to a new yr..celebratiin wiid lupp..over msn..hahas..
damn bored..my whole family iish out..decided nort to qo my aunt countdown..since my bro iish nt qoin..
spend e nite watchin vcd..metor qarden,westside stori..
29th NOV
lupp iish finnaly bac..
ToDaE..
met up wiid lupp todae..had a qreat tym wiid her..though..
she iish still as humorous..ha..
jl iish e same too..wishy washy..
no idea abt qisi..shho long nebber c her liiaox..
chris..
haiix..diidn qo out wiid dem as planned..
nevertheless..realised lotxx obb thngs frm jl..
morr infos abt dem..how lurviin dey still r..hahas..
nort qonna step in..sho..pls..sissy..stop qifiin mii hopes..i wished nt to entertained demm..
ya..how i wiished i could..
tis yr..mani thngs had happened..
hes qone,he has left,hes still derr..
missed him..missd tokin n chatiin wiid him..haiix..dunn even dare chat wiid hm arqqhhx..
tt cc iish still derr..bud it wont make ani diff..kux hes still as wishy washy as b4..
ibb i could turn bac tym..would i still chose tis fuckin choice??ha..no idea..

2005-12-01T21:07:00.000-08:00

im disgusted..by euu..
sick n tired of all these..
im gifin up......
i c no reason y i shld continue waitin lyk a fool...
it dosen matters..ur opinion..i treat it as shit..
ur confessions..i treat it as craps...
wadeva u said..i treat it as ur fartiin...
everythng tt kame out of ur mouth iish jus rubish..
stupid sissy..
isit so diff jus to open ur mout n tok??
stop bein lyk a gal wenn u arenn..
sick n tired of u..tellin mii nort to gif up on euu..
denn did u take ani actions frm ur side??
even iif u did..i dunn wish to noe..
dunn wana noe eitha..
kx ur jus a fuckin piece of shit..
a flirt...........

2005-11-09T18:09:00.000-08:00

wonderr y all guys r lyk these..
jux bkux a gal rejected a guy..
n dey r der..toturin demself..
if dey realli lyk tt gal..
dey would carri on widd deir life..or b a gentleman..
by tellin her tt dey r still frens..
wtf..neva saw such a guy..
so selfish..n tryin to make herr feel terrible n guilty..
hm..finalli underrstand how i feel liiaox..lupi..
budd wadeva happens..i will owaes b derr 4 eu..
i support ur decisionn..bud sumtyms i kant help thinkin if u supportd moi decision at tt tym..
i owaes feel tt u doesn seems to b supportinn mi..n sumtyms feel tt u r sidinn wiff cln..n blaminn mi..
i was feelin so guilty,terrible..sad n depressed..
budd oni jl was derr 4 mi..
she sweared at cln.. him..
she scolded dem..n console mi..
ha..she even saidd tt if she kann go ol..she will konfrm go n scold cln..
no 1 else seems to b derr..
i m cryinn every nite..
y does it seems lyk no1 else kare??haixx..
do ya noe..at tis kind of junction..1 realli nids to hear consolin words frm deir closest frenn..
n i tot i could get it frm u..
nw u r stuckedd here..
n i dunn wann u to feel terrible..
tts y i m here..gifinn u support..
i dunn blame eu..
kux mayb u jux dunn dare to trust mi..
or u didn noe how i felt..
or u was angri widd mi 4 gifin up a gud guy
or dunn wann to express ur koncern..
budd wadeva it iish..eitha wae..
i still blieve tt....tt......u supportt mi..
haix..actualli..i was realli depressed wenn i told u i had fallen 4 him again..
n u said;well,u noe he gort s alread..
it was hurtinn..
i nided u al..
all ur supportt..
budd..i jux kant seems to sense it frm u n qisi..
budd..we r still frens..
i luv u.. n qisi..
as a fren..besta frennx..

2005-11-05T22:09:00.000-08:00

nth muchh hadd happened nwadaes..
he dosen seems to bother bout mi animorr..
guess..tis might b e endd..
haix..hmm..
thoughh i admitt tt i missed himm..
budd wadeva done has been done..
i kantt take back oi decision eitha..
jux hope tt he will carry on wiff his life..fruitfulli..
n find a beta gal..
hope t he will kum bac..safeli..

2005-11-03T05:03:00.001-08:00

luv is everything its cracked up to b..
it ish worth fightin 4..
bein brave 4..
riskin everything 4..
n trouble..
if u dun risk anythng..
u risk even morr..

2005-11-02T05:46:00.000-08:00

...feel free to visit moi anotha blog..
+++www.hate-to-leave-euu.blogspot.com..=)

2005-11-01T06:54:00.001-08:00

i dun wana lose u..
kan u dun go..
r these few words soo diff to said out??
i dunno..i m konfused..once again..
i did luv him..bud nt as much as i luv w..
i dun wana u to lose ur life..
bud i jux dunno how to say it out..
i treasure u..
even as a frenx..
i noe all e things tt u had done 4 mi..
i realli wan 2 do sth 4 u 2..
bud..i m at a loss..
i m sorrie..
i dunno wad else i kan said..
these 3 words..i m sorrie..kip evolvin aroun moi mind..
wad shld i do??
i hate moiself..
did i done sth nasty??i felt lyk i had totured u..n no amt of sorrie kan kures..
haixx..
leave mi alone to cry..
tears..ss...

2005-11-01T06:54:00.000-08:00

haixx..a moodi dae..a sad dae..sumtyms..i realli regret moi actions..
bud i had no choice..he realli wanted 2 noe moi decision..
i realli m sorrie..i realli regret everything..
guess fr e beginin..i shouldn had gave him ani hope..
bud i tot i could 4get him..
bud reality has shown tt i couldn n i kant 4get him..
i lurv him..4eva..
no matter wat..i m willingli to wait..even if tt dae would neva kum..mi wif him??
i dun wana gif it a kare..
he said he luved mi..n he wana let go of tt gurl..
bud i dun wana tt gal 2 b hurtxx eitha..
n i aren sure if i kan trust him....kompleteli..
moi <3>
i dun hav tt much of konfidence in him eitha..
i noe i m dumb..
gifin up a great guy lyk u 4 a luv tt might neva kum..
bud i jux luv him..haix..
i m sorrie..
realli sorrie..

2005-10-15T21:02:00.000-07:00

EvErythng in tis blog is kina sad..
bud..everythng ish changin..
i will get on wid moi life..
fall down n get bac on ur feet..
i will do soo..
every1 aroun mi r v precious..
thnks 4 bein der 4 mi..
thnks 4 lendin mi ur hand..
thnks 4 bein koncern..
i will treasure every1 of euu..
**i lUv Ya AlL!!**

2005-10-15T20:35:00.001-07:00

haix..anotha bad dae..
yhx..in e past i may b v happie..
bud nw??gues i hav no mor felins..
i dare nt let moi heart skip a beat 4 hm..
nor 4 hs words..4 i noe i will b hurt..eventualli..
haix..wad rubbish??he said==i mux b v tired kux i had been runnin in hs mind 4 e 24 hrs n even in hs dreams..
bud is tis jux a copi n paste fr hs s??
it was stated in her fs pro..postin it 2 ah boi..
which mux b u..
haixx..sianx..i told u tt i m tryin 2 4get everythng on tt nite..bud u remind mi again..
n tellin mi tt u will neva 4get tt nite n tt u wil neva 4get mi..
bud..wads e point??wen u alreadi hav ur s..
even if u break up wid her..lok..
i aren goin 2 b wid euu..
i dun wana b hurtxx again..

To lupi,junkai n jl..
thnks 4 bein der..
tellin mi nt 2 go bac to hm bud we didn even start,though..
thanks 4 tellin mi nt 2 trust hm..
thnks 4 bein sad n nervous 4 mi..
i promise..
i will nt break down 4 hm..
thnks 4 bein der 4 mi..givin mi soo mani advise..
i will neva 4get..i realli appreciate ur advise..jk..
ehxx..as 4 jl n lup n 74..
thnks 4 tellin mi nt to lyk hm again 4 it will onli bring mi tears..
thnks 4 tellin mi tt it isn worth it..4 hm??
thnks 4 brin laughter n joy to mi..
rawkin out..
i will neva let moi <3>
euu aren worth it..

2005-10-15T20:35:00.000-07:00

2005-10-11T22:58:00.000-07:00

yohx2!!i m back..
tmr wil b e last dae of examss..yeahxx..
hm..nth much happen recently..
except 4 tt bloodi bitch..
hu still kant stop bitchn n followin us..
its damn obvious tt we dun lyk her n dun wan her to follow us..
yet she die2 oso wan follow..
n todae..wen we walked past 2n2 klx..
yupin was starn at her..soo fierce..
jux lyk she is her enemy..
well..guess every1 hate her n treat her as a enemy..
ha..even catherine diao her n said loudly..c wad c..open eyes soo big 4 wad..
wahxx..soo fierce..gues every1 realli hate her..
i dun wana pity her..nt at all..
bud sumtyms..her actions was lyk..wahx..as in it reali is out of real koncern..
bud everytym i wana pity her..every1 will stop mi..
tellin mi nt to 4get how she treated mi las yr..
n how she treated us as her spare tyre,,haixx..

2005-10-11T20:35:00.000-07:00

+++StArT a NEeW cHpT iN LifE+++
n4get bOuT e PasT
thnks..4 nkouragin mi..
i will kip on rawkin..
n get on wid moi life..
rawkx out..

2005-10-10T23:00:00.000-07:00

todae,,i m kinda hapie ..
4 i had discovered sum1 hu reali kares 4 mi,,jux lyk a big bro..hahax..
nt him,,though..
i jux kant figure out if hs koncern 4 mi is real..
i duno if i kan believ hm once again nt..mayb i shold..
4 he had alread 4goten everythng lo..
+++RaWk oUt+++

2005-09-29T20:00:00.000-07:00

on tix dae..haix..
guess it was kinda a sad dae..
u cried,i cried,n she cried..
mi n lupi..
guess we r kind of in da same boat..
he hax a gf..bud still wanna b wif another gal..
haixx..bud things turned out kind of fine..in de end..
cux..we still do joke2..
even though we still feel hurt..inside..
well..outside happie.....inside heartbroken..
guess every1 ish lyk tt..
well..it is realli difficult...to 4get everythng n every1....
jux hope tt everythng will b alrite..in e end..
i owaes said tt tym kan heal ones broken heart..
bud deep deep..inside moi heart..i doubt soo..
bud i stll havda turn e table around n console..him!!
bud i will pick up all e pieces of moi broken heart..
no mater how difficult itis..
no matter how tough it seems to b..
i will pick up every pieces..1 by 1..
n mend moi heart bac..
i will n i guess i kan..

2005-09-28T22:05:00.000-07:00

mani thngs had happened todae..
n i had a v2 hard tym shakin her off n fr followin mi..
mi,jl n 74 walked to e nearer bus stop as we were late 4 our appointment..
n wen we were halfwae thru..e bus 62 came..
jl n 74 straight awae ran..
n i was still kind of blur2..
i quickly went 2 n overtake jl n 74..
dey had intended to stop..
bud i continuned runnin n dey followed too..
i was full of determination to broad tt bus cux..i dun wana kipp hm waitin..
n in e end,,hahax,,i was e 1st to board e bus..followed by 74..
n den jl..
it was lyk kind of an acheivement..hahaxx..
bud in e end..tt ps kia..pungsehx us..again..
my 1st instint was..wad e hell did i run sooo fast n wid sooo much determiation 4??
bcux i still feel 4 u n kare 4 u..
i dun wana kip u waitin..
bud in e end..u did tix..to mi!!
haixx..
guess i m gettin used 2 it le..
days by days......................

2005-09-28T21:24:00.000-07:00

todae..yulin came n asked mi bout sth..
jol saw..n wtf..she kept askin mi to tell her wad yulin had said to mi..
i told her we were jux chattin..
n tt we haven even started n she came in le..
bud she jux dun blieve..
n she actualli dragged 74 to e toilet n she cried..in front of her..
i was thnkin..
wad onli..!!
wads der to cry??
i didn scold her!!i patiently said tt Ys were jux plainly chattin wid mi..
she went to da toilet..
n in e end..wen we went 4 our sci lesson..
we were stopped by mdm tan..
fr goin in2 da kix rm n settle down..
n all bcux of her..we were given a piece of mind by mdm tan..
n wen we settled down..she still kept probin mi..askin to tell mi wad Ys told mi..
i explained to her till i hax noo breath n she still dun blieve..
well..take it or leave it..
if u dun trust wad i said de dun trust lo..
n u still kan ask hu i will side wid..
of kourse i will side wid e rite parties..
i aren sure if i hate her nt..n if i would practise favoutism in moi judgement..
bud she had hurtx mi..soooo much..last yr..
she drove mi to da wall..n left mi wid no frens..
bud nw??guess she is regrettin her actionss..
she still thnk tt shes e princess..
n tt we still lyk her alot..
ya..i dun wish 2 hurt her..
bud her actions r sumtyms..
jux soo detestable n hateful..
haixx..we r avoidin her,..
guess every1 ish avoidin her..
its v2 obvious tt we r avoidin her..
wen we saw her..
we turned our bacs against her n walked awae,,quickly..
isnt tt damn obvious enuf??
she ish jux bein..well thick skin..
she kan make a gd frenx..
if onli..she didn backstab mi n treat mi soooooo badly last yr..
if..she weren sooo proud last yr..
n wen she had roxy familiy..she walk past us,diao us..n sumtyms jux pretend tt she didn saw us..
wad r frens 4??
nw tt she n roxxy family r on e rocks..she ish treatin us as a substitute,,spare tyre..
r frens meant to b taken 4 granted n as a spare tyre??
let mi tel euu tix--->FrEns kant b treated as spare tyre n shall neva eva b!!

2005-09-28T17:17:00.000-07:00

todae..i was kind of sad bcux of tt guy..
i kant help bud thnk of hm all e tyms..
n tt gal said tt i kan 4get hm..by..she hestitate..
n i immediately gusesed..um mean by cuttin moi wrists,,yahx??
n she said yes..
howeva..i jux feel tt by cuttin wrists..we may nt realli 4get abt e pains..
or mayb sum will..
i m nt implyin tt it is a stupid act..
cux dey r free to do soo..
bud it would b e same as toturin moiself..
i m hurt..badlx..
n y shld i continue hurtin moiself??
y??by hurtin moiself..
wouldnt he jux hav 2 kare less bout mi if anythng were to happen to mi??
yes..mayb 2 sum,,cuttin wrists kan realli 4get 1s unhappiness..
bud by doin soo..it will leave a scar..'
n wouldnt e hurtx no longa b erased??
n wouldnt it b da same as leavin e pain on 4eva??
i will live as hapie as i kan..
i will 4get e painss..
bud i won do soo by hurtin n toturin moiself..
EnDD..

2005-09-26T04:59:00.000-07:00

hahax..guess i m beginin to 4get e pain n sadness tt u had given mi..
i hax woke up--->to reality..
i will kip on rawkin..
i will stay happie..n spend e remainin sec,mins,hrs n daes wid lupi,qisi n jl..
i shall treasure e luvly n happie tyms we shared 2gatha..
i no3 i kant 4get completely e pain u had given mi n left mi to b heartbroken..
bud i dun gif it a damn!!
i shall live moi life to e fullest..
i shant 4get u cox i no3 we r still god slibs or frenx..
n i won 4get bout euu..
its hard to cox u r alreadi placed sumwhere in moi heart n in moi mind too..
fr e 1st dae i noe euu..
n e 1st tym i eva saw u..
it s hard to let go too..
moi heart will owaes hax a place 4 euu n hahax..e guy i admire..
nt 4gettin bout moi precious n beluved frenx..
n moi warmth family..
i wont 4get u..
its hard 2 4get euu eitha..
i jux wana 4get bout e pain n e sadness tt was left bhind..by euu..
ChEeR3!!

2005-09-26T04:39:00.000-07:00

Todae..hm..nth much happen toda..
bud ..e onli thngy special todae ish tt i had start 2 treat her beta..
toda was quite alrite..
n mi n lupi kept takin pics..hehex..
e sci test toda was quite diff..to mi..
cux moi sci sux..hahax..
todae..mi,lup,t2 went to cp..
i m beingin 2 4get abt hm 2..nt e entire he..bud jus e pain he had input on mi..
wid moi frenx..i realli completely 4get bout e unhappiness..
bein wid dem..ish realli soo happi..
bud wen we aren chattin or tokin..
i would fall dip into tots n thnk bout him again..
jux lyk how lupi alwaes think of tt guy wen we aren doin anythng or wen we fall into silence..hahax..
haixx..nth much to tok abt le..
guess i shall end here..=>..

2005-09-25T01:23:00.000-07:00

AbT FrEnShIp!!
As long as we hax memories..
Ytd remains
As long as we hav hope..
Tml awaits
As long as we hav frienship..
each dae is neva a waste!!

A candle may die n its fire may die
bud e frenship u had given mi..
will stay as a flame.. in moi heart..
FoReVa..

2005-09-24T21:01:00.000-07:00

FRENS 4EVA!!..n frens we will alwaes b..
LuPiTa>>>
JoAnnE--->
QiSi++
Jin LiNg:::

---->MoI LiFe Won B ComPlEte..
without e 3 of u standin by moi side wen i m helpless..
hope we kan get into e same klx next yr..
+++FriEnDsHip RuLeS+++

2005-09-24T20:44:00.000-07:00

To MoI bElOvEd FrEnX+++lupita..hahax..
kk..i m nw ritein to u 2..to tok abt HER..
i noe tt she is veri lonely..bud at de veri least..i noe tt..i still kare 4 her..she mayb soo lonely at tyms..wen i realli wana 4get e past..bud i duno y..n i duno if i kan..
i hax to deal wid tt luv prob frust..
guess i hax to 4get e hurt he actualli injected on mi 1st..n i noe tt wadeva i do..i alwaes hax ur back..n tt u will 4eva b der 4 mi..yahxx??
kkx..bac to her..hm..i will try karin 4 her,,yahx??
bud it s gona b difff..cux der r an odd num..
bud i will try..
gif mi sum tym..
i hax alread tried walkin in her shoes!!
wen we were in odd num..
no1 kare bout mi,,
n i was left to walk bhind yall..
jux lyk how qisi was hurtxx..
lok,,i arent blamin u n i neva will..k??
u r 4eva moi dearest frenx..
accompanied by qisi n jl..hu is e 2nd dearset..hahax..
i hate lesbians..bud nt all..
i aren sure if shes a les..
i hope she isnt..
i would feel 4 her 22..
i noe tt shes alwaes lonely..
i do kare 4 her too..jux lyk how she kare 4 mi wen i m in a bad mood..
btw..sorrx..i noe tt i m havin a md swing at tix moment bcux of tt guy,,ya noe..
sorrx 4 bein unreasonable at tyms..
i will control it nw..
cux i dun wana our frenship to drift apart bcux of tix trival2 thngs..
cum wad may..b it storm or waves..
our frenship will owaes stay..
lets us neva 4get e laughter we share..e joy we share..e gossips we share n e secrets we share..
all 4 of us:u,mi,jl n 74..
we will 4eva b frenx..ya??
jux hope tt next yr we will still b togatha..
i wont noe wad to do wo u al standin by moi side wen i m helpless..
u al bring a smile to mi n let mi 4get all abt him..
FrIeNdShIp RuLeS!!

2005-09-24T06:18:00.000-07:00

hmm...toda..i m hurtxx..again!!i jux duno wad dex wan!!i said all those touchins words to let her noe tt i dun wana break deir relationship,,yet she n he is feelin guilty..wads der to b guilty abt??its al moi fault!!...
U rawks moi world bud turn it colourless arubptly..
i arent sure..if i kan realli2 respect ur decision..
do ya reali kare bout mi??my feelins??luv jux hurt badly..u torn moi heart n let it bleed..
kan a smile hide a million tears??if yes..y doesn it seems so??i m owaes amilin..bud dip insid..i kant 4get e pain injected on mi..haix..my heart hurtx..jux lyk a knife piercin thru it..
everythng u said meant sth to mi..
i jux kant get u out of my mind..
u hax taken awae my sunshine n left mi alone to walk in e rain..
bud i still hax moi frenx der 4 mi..
if i dun hax u al..my frenx,,i realli kant imagine!!
y3??omg..everythng is happenin 2 mi,,i kant blieve tix!!
it hurts..bud i wil 4get bout wad had happened..
Wad e hell is luv??
---->it s nth 2 mi!!
++FRieNDshIp RUleS!!!++
i hax woken up...i will no longa live in tt shadow..i hax woke up..to reality..
i will kip on rawkin..
i will buck up..
i will prove to u tt i realli arent heartbroken anymor......i guess..
bud i will nid tym..
to heal up moi wound tt u had left..
n to heal moi heart..

2005-09-17T23:30:00.000-07:00

Haix..
u left mi to b soo happi..
u brighen up e whole of moi dae on is date..
bud later on..u brought a thunder storm..
Kan i realli2 respect ur decision??
Kan i still said alrite2 wen u hax hurt mi??
Kan i still smile wen u hax left mi,,heartbroken??
Kan we realli treat it as though nth had happen??
Kan i realli 4get u??
how u broke moi hart..
Kan i realli walk in e rain by moiselF??
Kan i still stay happie??
Does she nid u mor de i do??
GUESS al e ans ish..
---->NO<----
I KaNt!!
i no longa find ur jokes funi..
u no longa rawks moi world eitha..
i no longa trace a real smile on mi..
u kause mi 2 hav md swing..
n bcum soo unreasonable!!
i jux kant 4get everythng overnite..
it takes tym..
wad e fuckin hell is luv??
it s nth..
2 mi!!